I enjoy writing song lyrics and poetry, although I don’t do nearly enough of it. To date, I’ve got two songs under my belt (not counting a slew of Buffy the Vampire Slayer filk I contributed to the Mighty Big TV forums back in the day). This here is the first song I wrote, back in 2011. Parts of it are a little trite and cliche, but it came from the heart.
This past Tuesday was the fourth anniversary of the occasion that prompted it — my second miscarriage. I don’t feel the need to talk about those as much as I used to, but it didn’t strike me until last night that the anniversary had come and gone, and I don’t know how to feel about that. I still have sadness around due dates that might have been birthdays, but I don’t know what it means that I forgot to remember this anniversary. I guess it’s a healthy sign that I’m moving on, but there’s also guilt in moving on from something like that.
But forgetting the date doesn’t mean I forgot the life whose passing it marked. So here’s the song I wrote to make sure I would never forget. As if I ever could.
UNTOUCHABLE
Tower of glass
(unbreakable)
Atop the highest mountain
(unscalable)
Across the deepest chasm
(unreachable)
Behind the tallest fortress
(unbreachable)
Where you sleep
Where you dream
Where you wait to feel my touch
(CHORUS)
And I would climb the highest mountain
I would swim the deepest sea
I would slay the fiercest dragon
To have you here with me
I would raise the mightiest army
To knock down Heaven’s door
I would gladly lay my life down
If it could give you yours
Just to touch you…
But you’re untouchable.
Cradle of wood
(unfillable)
A room that’s still a guest room
(unlivable)
A dream that’s lost forever
(unbearable)
Two hearts go on without you
(so breakable)
I can’t sleep
But I dream
And I long to feel your touch
REPEAT CHORUS
One kiss upon your sweet brow
to wake you from your slumber
One caress of your tiny hand
falls through my grip like sand
REPEAT CHORUS 2X
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